Rich chocalaty ovaltine please

It's week 4 into my summer job search. I still have no job offer but a few promising leads. JPMorgan Chase called me today and set up a phone interview for next tuesday. I still have yet to hear the final decision for Ernst & Young and IBM and I have an on-campus interview for Accenture next wednesday. Theres still no guarantee ill be working though which is very unsettling.

Even though I dont have a job yet there are a few things Ive gained throughout this whole process:

1. A new suit and new work clothes that I can wear to formal and business functions
2. A working knowledge of the interview process
1. I can walk into an interview without being nervous
2. I can answer any behavioral question you could come up with on the spot, within seconds, and better than 90% of anyone else
3. An all expenses paid trip to New York City at the Hilton Times Square
4. 5 free expensive meals at very nice restuarants
5. A full arsenal of BS questions to ask people in my line of work
1. I can keep a nonsense conversation going for upwards of 15 minutes
6. Poor grades in Math 231 - Probability and Statistics, so bad that I need to drop the class
7. No time to study and slipping grades in my 5 other classes
8. A constant feeling of nervousness about getting a job this summer
9. A constant feeling of low self worth and a hurt ego after each and every rejection letter, phone call, or email
10. A newfound discovery and hatred of people who hide behind the company they work for as a means of inflating their superiority of everyone they encounter

Other than that its been ok these past couple weeks but Ive been constantly on the edge of my seat waiting to hear back from companies, waiting to go interviews with people, having to force conversation and interest with companies, researching the companies and jobs im interviewing for and everything related to that. Its been an incredibly stressful couple of weeks and if i dont get a job I will end myself.

Spring break has been nice, I visited Quinn last night. Here's Bucknell in a nutshell: A B+ university placed retardedly in the middle of rural western Pennsylvania. Theres nothing withing an 80 mile vicinity worth going to except the mighty Susquehana to drown yourself or a fraternity party on "Frat Row" to get nuts at. Everything from the dorms to the frats to the library to the gym to the academic buildings is red brick and seemingly designed by the same architect. The types of students Bucknell houses are those kids in high school that got decent grades, didnt really do much activity-wise, didnt get into their top choice, and dont care that theyre at a college sitting in the middle of a 60 million acre farm field. Everyone there seems extremely friendly and easy to talk to, and theres no prevalent type of person. They're very normal. Lehigh isnt like that at all with the cookie-cutter retards that study there. Their classes seem unnecessarily difficult, their class buildings arent anything to write home about, but their quad seems like it must light up with activity during the warmer months. overall I would say its a great place to go to school at. I had a great time kev.

I'll be at madison's for the next couple of days loving the wireless internet access all over their house. the house with floors that always get my socks damp for some reason, with no rooms to really hang out in, with nothing to do except watch tv or go online, and with more screaming and unnecessary bickering than you thought possible. I love it though.

Im going back home for my moms birthday at the end of the week. Hopefully Ill finish my homework. I still need to get a birthday present for her and I have no idea what to get. Im really not looking forward to getting back into hunting for a job at all and Im dreading school even more. This whole thing is like pledging with no clear sight at the end of the road and more making an ass out of myself and less self esteem.

Hopefully my next post here will be about a job offer.